The lesson I am trying to teach myself today is that it is okay to let yourself off the hook.
I know many of us runners like to push ourselves. We feel like what we do is never enough. We get to the night before a race and ask ourselves, “Was it sufficient? could I have done more?” My guess is that most of us also do this in our everyday lives.
Am I enough? Could I be a better parent, employee, daughter, student, husband? We beat ourselves up. Well, maybe you don’t, but I do.
We need the reminder that we should always do our best (aka shut up and run), but know when enough is enough.
We are not perfect. Actually, no one we know is perfect even though it might seem that way. Comparing ourselves to others is fruitless and only brings more anxiety and angst.
I woke up this morning thinking I should get up for some hot yoga, but laid in bed watching the clock turnover from 6:00 to 6:01 and knew I would miss my class. When the time read 7:00 a.m., I made the decision to rest today. And tomorrow. I want fresh legs for Sunday’s race. This half ironman training has been physically demanding. It has also made life that much busier. It’s true I will not meet goal for number of training hours this week. So be it.
This morning at 7:00 a.m. I let myself off the hook. My body wanted to rest. And so, I let it. I stayed in bed until 8:00 a.m., something I never do. I took my time making the coffee and my waffle sandwich. I glanced at the paper and lazily shot the shit with my kids while they ate.
Oh for god’s sake, I told myself. It’s not like you’re some pro athlete or anything. Get over yourself. Remember to find balance. Remember how you’ve gotten injured before and don’t want to be there again. Listen to your body and respond kindly. Work hard, but know when enough is enough. Have fun with your training, don’t make it the enemy or the obligation.
Do you overachieve? How do you keep yourself in check?